five minuites awake and my head is about to explode!I ask my mom to make my coffee a litlle lighter today,not like the mud she served me yesterday.She calls,and there is the same coffee I saw yesterday,dark,muddy like the Amazon in a storm.I mutter my displeasure,leave.From the kitchen I hear spoons clanking,doors closing just enough to be annoying.My 9 yaer old is throwing a tantrum,vieing for attention.I ask here to please dont bang the stuff on the counter....then it starts.How I brought here and left her alone,she's getting to the "I gave birth to you and you owe me your life" speech,how I went and lived my life "out there"(meaning in the states)and pulled here out of the projects after my father died and ploped her here,in a house we owned for forty years(and no one lived in)to enjoy the fruits of my father's long hard labor.All the sins I've ever committed on her strt to show up.As I listen(I remember,how she waited two day to call for help when my father had his stroke,because she did'nt understand what was happening to him.How she gave herself over to my father,to become an extendsion of him and not a real person,how she manipulates everyone around her to survive)I dont speak,I dont accuse,but I remember........

Monday:Woke up at the ungodly hour of 6:30,to wait for my cousin,who has a car,to take me to Choice Cable TV for the big modem activation.After traffic jams,and such,we arrive,give our name,and wait.An hour later,three minutes of surgery later and my new modem was "activated".Get home and few turns of the cable connector,and wow,Internet!!Now we'll see.............

Friday:after a week of making the appointment,my Cable Company,Choice Cable TV of Puerto Rico,comes and opens my account,and installs a modem.I try for three days to get things to work.Thinking it was my older router,I went on Sunday and bought a new router,nope.then I look at the modem,which looks a bit old,yep Motorla 2000.Two programs in my computer are telling me the router work but no connection.I try calling for help,.after an hour,the message system,bumps me.I call again,it bumps me again.
Monday:I call,after twenty minutes,I get an annoying person telling me I have a connection,when in fact everything works,but no connection...I get a service call for Wensday.Not wanting to wait,I go and buy a new Modem.I set it up and call the ISP to activate my modem.No,we cant activate it over the phone,no the tech cant activate your brand new modem,you have to bring it in to one of our office to activate the modem.Stay tuned folks,this is going to be fun.......

......on an Island!I feel like David Bowie in the film,I know the language,the customs,yet I'm a stranger,not one of them,will I ever fit in? doubt it,I must make this work on my terms and be productive in the process..........I am happy to see my Flying Subs,they give me comfort and joy.Cold water and wet towels are my friends,I see them often throughout the day......

I am moving,packing,straining,acheing,and kicking.....to be reborn,in Puerto Rico.I will be off the air for a while until I settle in.alex